I can’t believe it’s already April 2018! This year has gone so fast already.
I have some positive news – I’m still doing well. Counselling is obviously still very difficult but I know it’s making a difference, and I’m lucky enough to have found a counsellor who is a great fit for me.
It’s a funny one though because when you’re doing well mentally and you’re also going through therapy, I find that a lot of my mentally bad habits are more obvious to me. It takes a lot of work sometimes to overcome ways of thinking I’ve been trained in all my life. But I’m doing it. I’m checking my thoughts, I’m managing my moods and I’m so proud of myself.
I said ‘I love my life’ the other day and it felt like I was speaking another language. It was just so alien for me to think or say that out loud. But I do. For some reason, I thought I could only love my life if it was perfect but that is so unrealistic. Yes, there are always going to be bad days, but I’m so lucky in some aspects of my life and they make it all worth it.